NUMBNESS AND FIRE

And they made me feel like fire once, I was burning in my insides, but suddenly my heart was consumed. I thought if I fooled myself enough then I would feel it all brand new. I could even feel that warm sensation in my heart that I didn't have for a long time ago. Maybe it was more than that, maybe sometimes I feel too much that I can't feel anything, maybe numbness is my home, or maybe sabotage is a sweet addiction… I think I´ll never know.

I hate how they make me feel, and I hate how I was supposed to forget them, but I guess I never mean it at all. I think I regret wishing so hard to have them around me, but when I feel that emotional warm pinch of happiness I'm not sure anymore of these thoughts…. because I like it, I like feeling happiness until feeling nothing at all.