OUTBURST OF MADNESS

I overthink everything,
overthink,
action, verb,
I do it all the time, I'm doing it now,
I did it yesterday.

Again, alone,
Am I truly alone?
Or do I just want to feel alone?
I want to scream,
I want to be listened to,
I want to talk
and yet,
I overthink,
will I sound crazy?
Will they think I just want attention?
Do I just want attention?

I'm sad, I think,
I met a girl,
I really like her,
does she like me?
Do I like her?

No one knows me,
No one actually knows Sebastian,
they only know a version of me,
the little sarcastic guy,
sometimes funny,
completely messy, dumb
and sometimes annoying.
they don't know me

writing
is what I do,
overthinking
is what I can't stop doing
Is this writing any good?
or is it just another outburst of
madness on a lonely night that I’ll
forget in a few hours?
I don't want to stop,
I don’t want to get better

What is the point of life if there's no sadness,
no problems, just happiness,
how boring it sounds!

Questions, questions, questions
That is all I do,
When will I give an answer?
When will I receive an answer?

I'm still waiting.